I sit in the aftermath of a rotten moment 
Bathed in the darkness of modern designs 
Head perched in hands my mind fades back 
And I move my head to your direction 

I could swallow domestic sadness on any other day 
But on the eve of parental celebration I do struggle 
The guest of honour was never expected to show 
It still seems impossibly so 

I’m sorry I never think of you, as much as I should 
But I never had the heart to do so before 
Somehow if I tilt my head towards the heavens 
I think my words reach you, where ever they go 

I’m sorry I never speak to you, as much as I should do 
It’s not as if I couldn’t speak about you 
I’m sorry I moved on too fast, the others needed me too 
Stability is the only thing I could do 
I’m sorry if I kept it all to myself, no one would see me through 
To be a burden is something I won’t do 
I’m sorry if this all isn’t needed, but I felt I had too 
On the eve on a day dedicated to you 

I’m sorry for the sharpness of my tongue; I pardon myself for my French
I’m sorry for the distance I keep; I know you wouldn’t agree with it 
I’m sorry for my wild instincts, your furniture deserves better 
Even if you can’t hear, I feel I should’ve still 
There’s still a while to go, I still couldn’t do you wrong 
I only hope 

I’m sorry for every time for the times, I’ve moped about all day 
I know you’d kick me for acting that way 
I’m sorry for how I tired to soften the blow, and kept you away
I just wouldn’t know what else to say 
And I’m sorry it took so long, for even through song to say 
As we slowly approach the month of may 
This is the last time I’ll use you now, to vent my selfish ways 
I promise next time we’ll talk on a good day 

I’m sorry for the sharpness of my tongue; I pardon myself for my French
I’m sorry for the distance I keep; I know you wouldn’t agree with it 
I’m sorry for my wild instincts, your furniture deserves better 
Even if you can’t hear, I feel I should’ve still 
There’s still a while to go, I still couldn’t do you wrong 
I only hope, I don’t disappoint you anymore 

Just cos I never came through till the end 
Don’t think I never loved you 
When I forgot to call you back when I was out 
Don’t think I never loved you 
When I locked myself upstairs and refuse to come out 
Don’t think I never loved you 
When I freeze at the sight of tears 
Don’t think I never loved you 
When I stayed downstairs when I heard you moan 
Don’t think I never loved you 
When I didn’t cry when it was all over 
Don’t think I never loved you 
When I saw that smile on your passing face 
I knew you finally found peace 
And when I grinned after I left your room 
But it was only cos I loved you

Dedicated to ma’