The Attitude Towards Pain

The worst nights aren’t the one’s
Where your sobbing into your blanket
Over a collection of your favourites songs
It’s the one’s where just shrug it off
Unable to bring up any kind of emotion
“No surprise, girls will be girls, boys will be boys”
When so much aching’s rollercoasting around you
That you can’t cope with living any other way
Living with that overflowing contentment
It’s like a spoon full of Cavonia for your cough
Pain stops becoming inconvenient
And becomes inevitable

I’ve never thought of it so bleak before
But as I’m coming up to act of my 20’s
I’ve got to sit down and ask honestly
Can I ever find love before I hit the grave?

Lnc0

I love all the poems I wrote today like….. they’re fucking wank, but experiments, like i’m slowly giving these ideas a go so maybe it’ll be like “Shit,,, less shit,,, allright” then “GOOD!” but you do have to write some proper stinkers to get to “good” 

Liiiiike, What’s The Word? [W.I.P]

Fuck off is too harsh
Bug off is a little clean
Piss off is quite mean
Get off is too obtuse

What do I say to someone like you?
Who tippy toes
On Channel 4 exclusive fairy tales
With your eyes shut

Twat doesn’t imply your sweet touch
Angel ignores your stubborn nature
Idiot for goes that you planned it this way
Evil hints at an intent you’re incapable of

My friends are way to critical
But I was way too lenient
Is there no word to strike that balance
For what you gave me, then took back

Do I just steal one to be artsy?
Tell you too Kiss Off
Tell you to Fade Away
Tell you to Flock Off
Or go back on what I said with Fuck Off?
There’s just no word

Or do I get descriptive and say
“Go suck on the pride you earnt
Until your teeth go rotten”
…But what the fuck does that even mean?

You y’know what? I’m giving this too much thought
So I’ll leave you with this

“Kiss my ass, cos you’ll be missing it before long”

Lnc0

THE Look (W.I.P)

It’s always at the festive time of year
Do the jokers just wait till now to be dealt out?
Just a jack of Christmas shopping in my hand
The he goes ahead and gives me THAT!?

A flashback or two brushing me by
Weather from two years, two months
Or hell even two seconds ago
Despite existing on different times and context
There’s one thing that binds them all
And it’s they all feel the need to whip out that look
Not even by choice, as if something compels them
As they skirt on by in and out my life

Weather I loved them
Weather I used them
Weather I adored them
Weather I loathe them
Weather I’d beg them back
Weather I’d take a plane to get away
No matter what
That look prevails

But what It means I’ll never know
Does it mean you wanna stop me
And ask me if it’s going okay?
Or is it the fear I’d do the same
Is it roar to keep my distance
Or a way to beckon me near
Did you recognize me from the get go?
Or did it take you a second or two?

It always feels like it’s more then the face
What’s brought you all back again?
Have I got a lesson to learn
Or are you vindication I’ve already learnt it?

Lnc0

Looking back on my poems now vs. my poems in November….. WHOA where did all this self-confidence come from!? ….Oh yeah the fact i’m writing good poems again :L