Bar Room Bawl

merseawaves:

I like everybody else
I joined to exclude you
I love the laughter of the crowd
When you think it’s about you

And I know it reminds you
Of when you were a child
Your tears you tried
To keep inside
Dried into a smile

And I grin upon my pedestal
Mindfully ignoring you
Uproariously
Notorious
Gloriously dull

I don’t want anybody else
I came here without you
I fake this laughter, acting proud
When I’m thinking about you

This pain has burrowed into me
Until I’m not myself
I’m trying to crack your stoic shell
By endangering my health

I’m sin upon a swivel
Mouth stained around a drink
Of the tears I tried
To keep inside
Falling ‘til I sink

We are a stubborn salty pair
You act like you don’t know I’m there
I cracked my act an hour ago
This place is getting pretty slow

Guess I’ll go…

But you slip
Your hand in mine
You know how I look
When I’m too far from fine
You say
Some things are understood
You see?
You messed me up for good

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